This post is inspired my friend’s recent quest to be more vulnerable. Vulnerability, especially in love, is something that shouldn’t ever be viewed as a weakness. It is a vital part of any relationship, and something that we should all try to have in our lives.
Maybe I would have been
Something you’d be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I’d be good at
I’ll just come right out and say it. I LOVE Tegan and Sara. I couldn’t tell you how many nights I fell asleep in my bunk on tour listening to them sing. Some of their songs made me feel like they’d broken into my soul and written about the things they saw in my heart. This is one of them. There was a boy who came into my life out of nowhere It was one of those instant connections where you can just be yourself and you don’t have to hide any of your insecurities. We were both at very strange places in our lives, and there was a strict time limit on us being together. One day he told me to listen to the album that this song was from, and this song in particular felt like it had stabbed me in the guts. (Awesome visual, right?)
It hurt. A Lot. I could see the heartbreak coming a mile away, and I did nothing to stop it. Looking back, I think I let myself fall into it on purpose just to see if I could still feel. He taught me a lot about myself, and made me feel brave again. I’d suffered a huge heartbreak, and built up so many walls that I didn’t know how to get them back down again. He let me be vulnerable in as controlled an environment as you could get. It was vulnerability with a guaranteed fail at the end and I did it anyway because it was worth it.
Thank you, boy who will remain nameless. And thank you Tegan and Sara. All three of you fixed my heart (temporarily, at least) even though you hurt it at the same time.